Und wieder kommt es hoch… An manchen Tagen ist es echt schwer dagegen anzukämpfen. Mal sehn wie viel Zeit mir noch bleibt bis ich nicht mehr widerstehen kann. Manchmal ist es so schwer. Es einfach nicht zu tun obwohl alles in dir danach schreit. Dich diesem Zwang zu widersetzen…
All you need is love but what if love only hurts you?
What if love doesn’t make you smile but cry?
What if love just drives you crazy everday?
Love is such a bitter-sweet thing you can’t live with and you can’t live without.
When you love sombody you try to change yourselfe for this person. You try to change everything you do untill your are no longer the same as before. But why? Is it because you don’t want to be left alone? Is it because you are afraid of losing some one you love? I am so sick of it all. Changing and trying to be something better then you are. Wouldn’t it be easier if we could accept us the way we really are? Wouldn’t it be easier if we could just simply love each other?
A kiss on my lips
A touch on my skin
I’m losing my mind
I’m losing my heart
A look in your eyes
A look in your face
I’m losing my mind
I’m losing my heart
I feel you in my soul
I’m losing my control
Lost in your mind
Lost in your heart
Wir alle kämpfen um etwas. Liebe, Anerkennung, eine Beförderung oder nach was auch immer man strebt. Doch während wir kämpfen verlieren wir uns immer mehr in uns selbst. Blenden alles aus was unseren Weg blockieren könnte. Vergessen wer wir sind und wer wir waren. Nur das Ziel vor Augen, das uns verblendet. Und am Ende haben wir nichts mehr… Keine Kraft mehr zum kämpfen und nichts mehr um das es sich zu kämpfen lohnt. Dann kommt der Schmerz und mit dem Schmerz kommt die Leere. Du merkst wie es langsam anfängt dich von innern heraus zu zerstören. Wie ein schwarzes Loch tief in dir drin das nichts zu füllen vermag. Es zerreißt dich und du kannst nichts dagegen tun. Du willst nichts mehr fühlen, nichts mehr sehen, nichts mehr hören. Doch wenn es still ist hörst du dich selbst. Deine Gedanken die nicht aufhören zu denken. Sich immer und immer wieder im Kreis drehen. Dich nicht zu Ruhe kommen lassen. Gedanken die den Schmerz nur verschlimmern bis er ins unerträglich wächst. Du schneidest dich doch es hört nicht auf. Es hört einfach nicht auf. Immer wenn du denkst es ist vorbei, beginnt es von vorn. Du versuchst aus diesem Teufelskreis auszubrechen, dich von dir selbst zu befreien… Du kannst es schaffen! Rede mit jemandem! Öffne dich einer Person deines Vertrauens oder schreib einfach alles nieder. Es hilft. Es hilft… Verlier dich nicht in dir…
Once I met a Person, didn’t knew wo he was.
He toll me I would be the one, didn’t knew what he was talking about.
I said he would be crazy, didn’t knew he was so true.
Three years later I met him again, didn’t remember.
He said it would be time to go, I followed him.
We went into a forrest, didn’t knew where it was.
It was dark and cold, didn’t see thing.
He took my hand and pulled me away, didn’t say a word.
We arrived at a lighted place, didn’t believe it.
He turned around and looked into my eyes, didn’t look back.
He said you are my destiny, didn’t breathe.
The sword was cold between my shoulders, didn’t rip it out.
Blood was runing down my back, didn’t feel it.
He kissed me on my mouth, didn’t live…
I woke up in the night and it was just a dream.
The wind outside sounds like a voice which says:
You are my destiny….
Every step that I take
Every move that I make
Is wrong in your eyes
Every word that I say
Every night that I pray
Can’t make it better for you
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Waiting by the telephone
want you to hear yor voice
Waiting by the door
want you to come
Waiting for you saying it’ allright
Filled with shame I cannot stand
Pulled by blame without a friend
Refrain:
It’s your rising that make me afraid
It’s your rising and your raid
It is too much…just too much
My heart is broken my soul is blind
Decayed hands reach over my mind
It’s your rising that make me afraid
It’s your rising and your raid
Screaming for more….just screaming for more
My body fraught with such sweet pain
Blood all on the floor again
It’s your rising that make me afraid
It’s your rising and your raid
I’m feeling better now…just feeling better now
You influence me with your words.
You destroy me with your names.
I can’t escape from you ’cause all I want to do is beeing with you.
Tell me why? Tell me why? Can’t you feel the same?
Tell me why? Can’t you feel my love?
My love…
I’m going everywhere you go.
I follow you everywhere, can’t you feel the same for me!
I’m just what you want me to be!
Why can’t you feel the same?
I’m afraid to say what I’m feeling.
But when I tell you, please believe me.
Tell me why, why? Tell me why, why?
I love you more then I can say, more then you can understand.
I love you and I need you anytime and anywhere.
I love you and I kiss you and I feel you close to me.
I’m feeling free in your arms, when you touch me and kiss me.
I want you by my side, I want you near me tonight.
Can you feel my heart burn?
If you leave I ask you to stay, ’cause you’ve touched my soul and my heart.
I can’t breath without you…
I can’t live without you…
Please never leave me, my darling.
Look into my face and say the magic words to me.
The magic words that open every heart.
And everything you do is right in my eyes.
I love you more then anyone else in this world.
I love you more and more and I need you more and more.
Please kiss me more and more.
Do you feel the same for me that I’m feeling for you??
When she walks along the street you can see her crying. All alone in the shadow of her mind.
You can’t reach her you can’t help her…
She walks on and on, she wil never stop she will never live. She is just a cloud on the blue sky just a teardrop that falls on the ground.
You can’t reach her you can’t help her…
She turns around and look into your eyes with these sad smile you know. Her mouth opens but you can’t hear a word.
You can’t reach her you can’t help her…
